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I hope it's not ulcers [May. 22nd, 2017|10:51 am]
Billy Housh
My stomach hurts in the morning. I can't even breakfast. I think it's acid.

Shit burns in my tummy and when it's being pushed out. It must be acid.

My eyes burn and my stomach burns. I hope my soul is next.
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Burning Eye Allergy [May. 22nd, 2017|12:51 am]
Billy Housh
My eyes are burning. I'm blind because I want to see everything so I took a break from wearing glasses.

My eyes are burning. The screen is slightly blurred but I still enjoy the feeling of hitting keys. When I see red underlines, I bring my face closer to the glow of the screen to fix my mistake.

My eyes are burning. I'll keep typing regardless. It bothers me when my fingers get greasy. My hands get clammy when I'm not typing and resting on the home row. I better keep typing.

My eyes are burning. I continue to type despite all this. I hope that the strain will make me tired and go to bed. Morning awaits me but I'm trying to take a break from coffee.

My eyes are burning.

Eye drops.
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Even my dad was feeling the crazy [Nov. 22nd, 2016|07:41 pm]
Billy Housh
My old man got me to install a voice recorder on his ipad so i can do the same shit i do here on LJ

ho ho ho merry christmas
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Winter [Nov. 21st, 2016|10:04 pm]
Billy Housh
You try to be strong but it's hard because everyone around you is also feeling the seasonal change. I keep promising myself this will be the last winter on the east coast but like an abusive spouse I keep running back.
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Remembering childhood prophecies [Nov. 20th, 2016|09:33 pm]
Billy Housh
The memories of the future bled through to me as a child. I was told to keep still during prayer as a child. I would go into a meditative state during these moments of constraint which I thought I how we communicate to God. I would go into tunnels like wormholes inside my head and have vivid dreams of my future but using signs I would understand at that point in my adolescence.

Memories of the locust in the fall on Lake Street which lead to my Aunt's orchard would be in my head. Making the journey to my Aunt's home when my eldest sister was left sick in the street. We watched her decay from the bay window overlooking the dark orchard and the illuminated street where she lay.

My aunt's home is now long gone. The orchard has been bulldozed into parking for the Jehovah Witness Kingdom Hall that had been erected in its place.

My sister is in a house a street parallel to where I saw her lay in that dream decades ago.

I now understand that dream.
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Yabba dabba doo how are you?? [Nov. 20th, 2016|07:35 pm]
Billy Housh
My belly button gets itchy in the winter because my skin gets dry. Why do I cry? Fuck this shit I just want to sleep forever as the days get shorter and the nights get darker.

It's getting cold. Holidays are coming. What are you going to buy yourself to justify living another year?
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I'm back [Nov. 19th, 2016|10:03 pm]
Billy Housh
I'm back on a desktop PC I created with whatever was laying around the house. I think after I wrote most of my master's thesis I was able to shed 15 years of trauma and pick up where I left off. I did gain some weight though but it will be fun working it off through proper exercise and eating.

Life is good though.
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Pedar va Pesar Street DVD Vol.1 - IndieFlix [Sep. 29th, 2009|03:55 pm]
Billy Housh
Pedar va Pesar Street DVD Vol.1 - IndieFlix

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Dear LiVEJOURNAL [May. 28th, 2009|07:24 pm]
Billy Housh
It's been awhile since I wrote in this thing. I used to type shit all the time and love it. I used to use this account to cope with not having anything else better to cope with. Now I guess I make those videos with my dad. Don't tell him but he's really hard to work with. The elderly need a lot of nap time and snacks. Oh and the massive shits.

It's a lot of fun though. I guess I'm lucky- lucky that I'm still alive and kicking. Lucky to still give a fuck.
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Cars [Mar. 29th, 2009|08:14 pm]
Billy Housh
I'm ambivalent towards cars. Growing up in the sticks your life depends on one. I guess that's why we fight for gas even though I got tons in my bubble butt.

Cars suck when you don't have money. Used cars suck bottles of dick juice and taking them in to the shop sucks even more. I guess cars don't suck if you are poor and know how to work on them. However, if you know how to work on cars I'm sure you can make tons of cash charging to repair them. Then you can afford a brand new one that has a warranty and the dealer can deal with your bullshit.

But what the fuck? Maybe you are good at working on cars because you have a passion for it. Then you wouldn't buy a new car you would get one of those classics you build yourself by order the parts off ebay or some kijiji shit. Wait, then how will you have the time to work on other people's cars to make the money to buy these expensive parts and wouldn't you burn out from working on cars on your free time as well as your job? Then working on cars wouldn't be a good leisure activity.

So you ask what the hell do the pimp your ride dudes do? I'm sure they hang out at tattoo parlors, go to strip clubs and do a lot of drugs. But what happens when that effects your car repairing performance. Well, then you wont have the cash flow to sustain your lifestyle.

I guess life's all about balance and moderation.

I have to take my sister's car back into the shop tomorrow morning. I like flipping through auto trader, which is a car classified magazine, while i wait. I noticed all the cars I dreamed about buying when I was in high school are dirt cheap. I guess it's the economy and the fact that you can finance a brand new car for nothing. The auto industry has gone up ass creek.

2006 Jag for 6 grand. Shit, makes me want to get a job just to buy a car. Shit, makes me want to complete my graduated licensing. Shit, I'm just thinking about cars because I started to drive around my sister's whip and love listening to tunes cruising in this weather. Motherfucker it's spring and my brain is starting to work again.

So is my dick. Cars get you pussy 'cause girls like security. Man with car means he gets shit done. It's biological and if I want to spread my germ I gotta start picking at them scabs.

It's so easy for me to mindfuck people so why wont I start making money so I can project my inner self in wealth. I act all holier than thou cause I don't care about money. Well, this is the world we live in and status is based off wealth. I shouldn't care what others think of me but I do need to prove a point and I'd like to to lay down my pipe.

Fine. Time to make money again.
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